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Better in Time

MsBulletkandy — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 13:13:05 +0000

Wow, half the year have gone. We’re now on the second half of 2010. How time flies. I can safely say that the ‘fun’ part of the year has gone and the other half will require more patience, determination and will power. Yes, my bestfriends, my boyfriend, even Nadiah, will never hear the end of it. I have to keep reminding myself that it is all for the best.
For him. For me.

Yes, my nights are a little lonelier.
But I know even if he’s not with me physically, he will always be with me heart, mind and soul.
And I know that he will drop everything and be with me in an instance, if I needed him.

Maybe this is our test from Him before being together for life.
And we need to except it and in the best way possible, overcome it.
If it’s meant to be, it will be.

Insyallah.
It will only get better in time.

Phuket 2010

MsBulletkandy — Wed, 19 May 2010 01:36:05 +0000

Can hardly wait (:

The ‘H’ Word.

MsBulletkandy — Sun, 09 May 2010 05:46:16 +0000

Yes, I only blog when I’m down, depressed or upset.
I guess, now is one of those moments.

but i don’t know what to blog about.
my feelings? pretty much empty.
my head? not in its sharpest form.
my heart? somewhere.

you know that sinking feeling you always feel when you are dreading something?
Its been with me for days, nights.
and i don’t know what’s wrong.

i realised that at times,
you gotta find your own happiness.
at least you won’t be so dependent on others
and feel like crap when they can’t give it to you.

MsBulletkandy — Sun, 28 Mar 2010 03:21:18 +0000

I think as whole as a person that we could be, deep down we’re all broken people with cracks in our souls.

The Element of Freedom

MsBulletkandy — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 14:09:41 +0000

“So rather than holding on to a broken dream, I’ll just hold on to love.”

I love that part of Alicia’s ‘Try sleeping with a broken heart’.

Anyways, after a week and a half of doing relief (which I so hate), I’m back to having a class of my own. & my table is not so empty anymore. I know, weird right? That I actually welcome the workload. Beats sitting around doing nothing if you ask me. School holidays next week, so I’m off for a week. Another crazy term awaits me after that.

In a completely different note, I realized, since I started blogging some 7 years ago (pffft! the number just kept increasing!), my blog contents changed as I grew up. I used to blog about every single thing that happened that particular. For example, “Today I went to school with Siti Intan Payung. Reached school at 7.15am. After school, we went to Ginza”..You get the drift. Now looking back, I can’t help but laugh at my entries. Like who cares what time you reached school and what time you get back home right? But I guess, that used to be the ‘in’ thing. When everyone strive to be ‘cool’. Little did we know, we were just being childish and naive. At fourteen, you’re excused!

Over teh and prata with sambal, the bestie and I reminisced our growing up years. Secondary school days when your biggest worry was that strict Chemistry teacher (Mrs Tan, ring a bell anyone?) who would scream at you for not knowing your ions. Seriously for someone with a skinny body frame, the woman must have swallowed a couple of entertainment systems. The days when we reached school early just to copy our Math homework, when Shikin would be our epok-epok girl, when we used to blast MP3 using the class speakers. That particular day when our chairperson locked our belongings in the class and we had to climb through the windows to get in. When we hid books in the class ceiling during spot checks. When Yazam hid in the metal cabinet for a whole 2 periods to escape Math lesson and gave himself away when there was a cockroach in the cupboard. Also, how we spent the last week of secondary school throwing paper planes and paper balls around the classroom using our National Geography magazines. Speaking of which, remember how we use to tear Reader’s Digest and National Geographic magazine into halves or more parts when we didn’t have any book for reading period and we used to share. How about official opening? Remember how we practiced so hard for that? I ended up bringing the Guest-of-Honor to the wrong level anyway. Guess I didn’t have enough practice. Haha. Gosh, so many great moments. So many great friendships forged.

Apparently, KR is celebrating their 10th year.
It has been that long huh, Kent Ridgeans?

Have you gone ‘Beyond Frontiers’?
Cheers to the good years!

p/s: Seriously, I don’t know how this entry turned into an entry about my sec sch days. Hehe.

BSB:This Is Us World Tour 2010

MsBulletkandy — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 11:44:45 +0000

A few night ago, 28th February 2010, to be exact, I checked “Seeing Backstreet Boys Live” off my DREAMS CHECKLIST.
Yes, the quartet came down to Singapore & we get to see them perform live. It still felt surreal when I was screaming my guts out. It was like a Youtube video of one of their live performances. Only bigger. Only that they are actually there in their own skins. I guess no matter how many albums they have, the classics are still the ones etched in everyone’s head. The pangs of growing up. The days when I’ll memorized every single lyrics. 3 best albums would be Black & Blue, Never Gone and Unbreakable. They have more of the backstreet feel.

Bought lanyards! This was taken before the concert. Super duper excited~!

Already in the venue, waiting for our boys to come on!

Almost there!

SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRB. The heart’s melting.

Well, hello there Mr Litrell (:

Having the time of our lives.

Backstreet’s Back, Alright~

Definitely worth the 151bucks we paid each!
They said they will be coming again next year, & I’ll definitely be front row for that.
Who’s with me?

Special mention coz someone said ‘Ehh you never mentioned I picked you up!’
Thank you soooooooo much to my dearest boyfriend who picked us up after the concert.
Hehe. You’re the best!

Till next time,
Quit playing games with my heart <3

Queen of Hearts.

MsBulletkandy — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 14:14:47 +0000

Where did I leave this blog?
Oh yes, emo-fied posts.
I had the sudden urge to blog today.
Or more like visual vomit. Tearupthesky is getting a tad too depressing for its own good.

Connections are good, especially reliving the old ones. They’re golden.
Since Miss Lim’s wedding (or should we start calling her Mdm Nurul Huda? Yes, the fav teacher is now a sister of Islam), the Secondary 1/2 class have been meeting up and hanging out. We’re even at the midst of planning an overseas trip together. So excited! Time have changed, and we’ve all grown up, one way or another. It’s time to laugh at the childish moments we had secondary school. But deep down, it’s a lesson learnt more than anything else.

3E10 BBQ! Again, another group of people that still had the craziness in them after years of not seeing each other! Had uber fun during the BBQ (:

Brough the Imans out to the zoo! Must be our most tiring date yet! Even Henderson Waves(will come to that later) wasn’t that tiring. But definitely had fun hanging out and seeing Love with kids. They love him. From prata breakfast, sandwiches for lunch to Ben & Jerry’s Icecream, Chita’s falling down, and Macdee’s for dinner, we stuck through it! Another outing during the March Holidays perhaps?

The first Sisterchick turned 21! *confetti!
It was an awesome 4 days 3 nights chalet. All the preparation was worthwhile and I’m glad the bestie enjoyed herself on her special day. Many more good years to come girl! Keep believing (:

Sisterchicks first overseas trip! Stayed @ Thistle, Johor Bahru. Though it was a short and somewhat near vacation, we had a blast. From the awesome 4/5 star hotel room, to binge eating on Domino’s, to screaming our guts out on the Viking and ultimately, spending so much riding the bumper cars at Danga Bay. OMG. I can’t express how much fun I had during the stay.

& guess who turned 1 on Valentine’s? Here’s to many more good year with you bby <3
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Life has been good to me. And as human, I tend to always forget that this is all a blessing.

When I Look At You

MsBulletkandy — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 13:46:49 +0000

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights are long
Coz there’s no guarantee
That this life is easy

When my world’s falling apart
& there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I’m not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like a kaleidoscope colours that cover me
All I need, every breathe that I need

Don’t you know?
You’re beautiful.

Life & Death.

MsBulletkandy — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 16:14:55 +0000

To think that this is a year for growing up. The big 21. Officially an adult and all that comes with it. Scary much? Definitely. But does that mean we should give up on life? Definitely not. A death of a friend recently reminded me that even though you have the right to your own life, you still owe it to those who love you dearly and those who would willingly take a bullet for you.

Gone without goodbye, they say. How can they ever find closure? Is there ever a right time to move on? Is there ever a right time to let go?

The only remedy is TIME. Only time could hopefully ease the ache, heal the open wound. The scar will only be evidence and serve as a reminder about how fragile life can be.

May you be in a better place and finally, may you be at peace